So, I've been to a couple of AA meetings now. I love going to them and really get a lot out of the meetings. The feelings I leave there with are foreign to me. I feel calm, welcomed, not alone, inspired. I'm just a little uneasy though. There are only a handful of people my age in the meetings. Most of the people are at least 40. There is a lot of clean time between them and I find that inspirational but I wish there was someone my age I could relate too. I also haven't met anyone from the meetings yet. Once the meetings are over, everyone starts chit chatting amongst themselves and I don't feel like interrupting anyone to tell them my story. Honestly, what do you say to someone in AA when first meeting them? That might sound silly but it's something I constantly struggle with.

I figure if I keep going to meetings on a regular basis then sooner or later I am bound to meet someone and connect with them.

I didn't go to a meeting tonight. I will go to one on Thursday. Tomorrow school starts and I am going to the Buddhist center at 7 to meditate and try to find some calm within myself.

That's all I got.